Was talking to Ganga yesterday in the gym and was telling her I feel happy for myself, people has been coming to me asking how I did it and why the change, I guess the change in outer appearance is good but what I was more happy about was the change from within...
What with the gymming and running, I have gained even more self confidence,I look slimmer (15Kg), look fitter and more tanned, but all this does not compare to how I really feel inside,
In a certain sense, who was within me has died, and I do like the newer me, not that the old self was not likeable (HAH!), I told her that I am happy that I have gotten rid of my wilful nature, my stubbornness.. I have always done things my way, the way I want it and insisted on not doing certain things, and overnight all these "beliefs" have been thrown out of the window, there's really nothing I am holding on to now and that is good.. no more stupid Sim Eng Chee excuses and reasoning...
My moving out at 21, my choice of lifestyle, my dietary preference, my walk with GOD, my relationship with those around me, everything has dawned on me that I have been rather self-centred and wilful, not considering the feelings of those who cared about me... I am glad I turned back... Thank you to all who have been by my side, I will be good.. I promise.
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