10 November 2009

Looking Forward

Haven't written for the longest time... cos the last few months have really gone by in a whirlwind of  events....

A New Beginning... and I am looking forward.... I would never have imagined myself so thoroughly different... but now I truly understand ...CHANGE IS GOOD...

I surprised myself all the time now... HAHA...and much as most of my friends would say I have too big an ego... I still deserve a PAT on my back...

Thanks to ALL.... for being a part of my precious memories... I will treasure every bit of it....

With Lotsa Love,
Take care 


14 July 2009

完美的一个月

六月十一日的邂逅,一句简单的多谢,竟然给我带来的一个月童话似的美梦,我心中只有感激与甜蜜。

两个傻傻的人的相遇,为彼此做的傻事,这就是缘份。。。回忆我会好好珍惜,你,我亦都永远不会忘记。。。

虽然,隔着我们的有汹涌的波澜、及我们彼此心中都挥之不去的阴影,但这一个月给我带来的却是一种释怀。。。

你是一个很特别的人,一个很好的人,要疼惜自己、放开伤痛

11062009-12072009 完美的一个月、永远留在我心的一个月。

Love
Jet

04 July 2009

The End

The conversation today did me alot of good and I am more sure than ever it's over... not a tinge of feelings left... and I am glad this will be my final entry about US.

I am not sure if you did get to listen to yourself... maybe you recorded it haha... but you sure am not the person I have known before.

The John C Maxwell workshop brought a lot of enlightenment... and opened a whole new dimension of life for me... I shall strive to be loved and respected by those around me who genuinely love me and care about me, those that are really close to me...

27 June 2009

The Best

I might not be the BEST guy in the world, but I am sure I am the guy who treats you the BEST in this world.

28 May 2009

Sitting Waiting Wishing

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
that you believed in superstitions
then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
and I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
and in loving somebody don't make them love you
Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing the fool?
I sing ya songs
I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
and maybe you been through this before
but its my first time
so please ignore the next few lines cause they're directed at you
I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your cards
but its not my scene
wont this plot not twist?
I have no place to read?
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
and If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do
Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing the fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, fool

27 May 2009

没有常在心的日子第365天

我怀着虔敬的心情踏入你践踏过的天堂,一年前的满目疮痍,跟如今的井然有条让心中的释然沫上一股光彩。

我选择纪念那天撕心裂肺的痛因它予我重生,成全了你的背叛,也释放了自己。

原来真的可以自顾自美丽、各自各精彩,一个人的逍遥比起两人的互相牵绊。。。

祝福自己:)

20 May 2009

没有常在心的日子第358天

The thought of getting close to someone again actually freaks me out quite a fair a bit, learning to trust and sharing my life with someone else... I am guarding the fort tightly, maybe too tight... but the thought of failure and disappointment doesn't seem too distant for me and I would rather play it safe...

People have been nice, really nice in fact,and I do not want to be a jerk, which is why most of the time I end up shying away...

Learning to trust is going to be an arduous task, am I up to it???

06 May 2009

Fidelity

Elizabeth Edwards: Our marriage is 'day by day'
John Edwards' wife tells Oprah Winfrey about her health, John's infidelity

Proving the title of her new memoir, “Resilience,” to be accurate, Elizabeth Edwards sheds some highly personal insights into her life, her health and her husband's infidelity with Oprah Winfrey, in a TV interview to air on The Oprah Winfrey Show Thursday.
Speaking exclusively with Edwards — as well as with her husband, the former presidential candidate, John Edwards — in the couple's 28,000-sq.-ft. home in Chapel Hill, North Carolina, Winfrey inquires after the state of the couple's marriage. "Is it a day-by-day thing?" asks Winfrey.
"Neither one of us is out the door," replies Elizabeth, according to a partial transcript of the interview provided PEOPLE by Winfrey's Harpo Productions, "so I guess it's day by day, but maybe it's month by month."
In terms of domestic arrangements after it was made known to Elizabeth that John was carrying on an extra-marital affair, she says that the two of them are "still living together." Asks Winfrey, "Are you still in love with him?"
Replies Elizabeth: "You know, that's a complicated question."
The other woman In her book, to be published next Tuesday, Edwards slams Rielle Hunter, the woman with whom Edwards had the 2006 affair. Although she never uses Hunter's name in the book, Elizabeth paints her as a desperate groupie who seduced John Edwards.
Speaking to Winfrey, Elizabeth relates, "What John said is that this woman spotted him in the hotel in which he was staying. He was meeting someone in the restaurant bar area, and she verified with someone who he worked with that it was John. John went to dinner at a nearby restaurant, and when he walked back to the hotel she was standing in front of the hotel. She said to him, 'You are so hot.' "
As for Hunter, "This person is very different from me, and really very different from him," says Elizabeth. "We're basically old-fashioned people. So, this was a pretty big leap for him. Maybe it's being so different is what was attractive."
"The other woman has a baby," Winfrey notes. "And there is great speculation that your husband, John Edwards, is the father of that baby."
"That's what I understand," says Elizabeth. "I've seen a picture of the baby. I have no idea. It doesn't look like my children, but I don't have any idea."

NEW YORK - Elizabeth Edwards writes in a new memoir to be published in May that she had "begged" John Edwards for fidelity when they married, reports RadarOnline.com.
Contents of the forthcoming book, "Resilience: Reflections on the Burdens and Gifts of Facing Life’s Adversities" initially leaked on on Thursday, but the celebrity news Web site today reported new details.
In "Resilience," Edwards, 59, writes: “How had I failed as a wife?” and declares “I now felt thoroughly and publicly humiliated.”

Fidelity, am I holding on too tight to an ideal that does not exist in this world anymore? Does it mean anything to anyone anymore???

28 April 2009

Happy Birthday Mummy!

Happy Birthday Mummy and I LOVE you!

24 April 2009

没有常在心的日子第333天

The Woman Who Forgot to LIVE

"First, I was dying to finish high school and start college.And then I was dying to finish college and start working.And then I was dying to marry and have children.And then I was dying for my children to grow up and get out of the house.And then I was dying to retire.And now, I am dying...................and suddenly I realize I forgot to live."

LIVING... embracing LIFE...touching LIVES...moving LIVES...LIVING...LOVING LIFE..LOVING you...

23 April 2009

没有常在心的日子第332天

It's gonna be a year soon, and was just browsing some photos of U and US, the memories are becoming more distant... as I told you...

I am perhaps even not too familiar with the feeling of having you around anymore...

In one of my previous post, just realised I made a typo of 常在心, I wrote 长在心instead, but I guess it is not wrong...you will be...

17 April 2009

一生所求

一生所求
能够完成心底梦
跟随时光
不停向前走

在追逐中跌伤
在挣扎中成长
真实的世界 浪潮太过汹涌

一生所求
能到梦的最高点
即使瞬间
也甘于所有
太多该与不该
只能忙碌徘徊
矛盾与错过之间 不断遗憾

人总是向高处
不愿向水低流
奈何在我心中
太多绳索牵绊摆不脱
最高也许寂寞
失意的时候谁会记得我
发现快乐 平淡时最多

一生所求
能与最爱共白首
只求起落中
不曾失去真我
未来的岁月
不愿失去真我

我想走了。。。

16 April 2009

没有常在心的日子第325天

Was just telling Chin Sin and Thaddeus over dinner last night that I don't have dreams anymore.. as in the real dreams that happen during sleep.. and it had to happen, you appearing in my dreams the whole night,

I dreamt that you were OK with seeing me again.., dreamt that we had a good time together, dreamt that we still enjoy each other's company... behind his back...hahha
... when I woke up from the dreams, I cried out loud... It still hurts like hell and I have yet to mend the pieces in my heart, You will never know the damage you have done

I guess deep down inside, I still miss you sometimes, and also the time we spent... but beyond that, we have both moved on with our lives, and much as I will alway be the FEIFEI THAT WILL ALWAYS BE HERE, we will never be together again..

Love,
Jet

31 March 2009

没有常在心的日子第311天

I keep you with me in my heart and find that I am able to soar above the skies...

I keep my thought about you in my heart and find that it's just not that hard...

Time heals but Love does not fade. Wounds heal and I am happy to know you are well.

Life returns to normalcy as I learn to create what is to be...

But for those, who hope, work and play...

THE BEST IS YET TO BE

I keep you with me in my heart, you make it easier when life gets hard.......

24 March 2009

Yellow and Blue

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine
Look at the stars Look how they shine for you

26 February 2009

没有常在心的日子第278天

Birthdays birthdays...
Been having a friend or two having birthdays alomost everyday the last few days, and have been sending them birthday greetings, till today it dawned on me when I greeted a friend "Happy Birthday" that everyday that we are living is a GIFT in itself.

Life is definitely short and unpredictable... and we usually take too many things for granted, and I am one who needs constant reminders like that , to take note more of those around me..sighz.. hahah.. must be GOOD!

29 January 2009

没有常在心的日子第247天-我们都是愚蠢的

1 美元零87美分,她就这点钱。而在这些钱中,有60美分是最小的货币单位——便士,是她平时到市场上与卖菜卖肉的人讨价还价一便士两便士地省下来的。这种讨价还价通常是直到买卖双方的一方因为无言一对而沉默认输为止。黛拉数了三遍,不错,就是1美元零87美分。第二天是圣诞节。

除了坐在那里哭之外,她无所适从。所以黛拉哭了,她梦想少哭多笑的生活,哪怕是哭比笑稍微少一点也好。

哭完后,黛拉擦干面颊。她站在窗户前痛苦地看着外面:在灰色的后院中一只灰色的小猫沿着一条灰色的栅栏走过。明天就是圣诞节了,而她却只有这一块八毛七去给丈夫吉姆买件礼物。她尽其所能,用了几个月一便士一便士地攒,才攒了这些。

吉姆每周挣20美元,但这却远远不够,因为开支比预算大的情况总也发生。许多幸福时刻她都会计划给吉姆买点精致、稀罕且使他感到体面的好东西。

在房间的两个窗户之间有一面穿衣镜。忽然间,黛拉从窗户前转身到镜子前面,照看起自己来。她眼光闪亮,但在20秒的短暂时间里,她的脸便失去了颜色,她迅速解开了她的头秀发,将其垂吊为自然长度。

而现在,詹姆斯·迪灵汗·杨夫妇只有两样值钱的东西。一个是吉姆的金表,是他父亲从祖父那里传承给他的,再就是黛拉的秀发。

黛拉站在窗内,让美丽的秀发飘在窗外被风吹干,她的秀发简直让女王的珠宝都降低价值。

黛拉的秀发从她的头上飘下,闪闪发光,就像一帷棕褐色的瀑布,瀑布一直伸展到她的膝盖,简直整个把她自己都盖了起来。最后,她把秀发重新扎了起来,站在那里,有几滴眼泪落入地板。

她穿上外套,戴上那顶棕褐色的旧帽子,快步跳出房门走向街道,眼中的泪珠依然反射出光芒。

在标牌有“索芙罗尼女士(Madame Sofronie.),收购各种头发商品”的店前,她停留了一会儿,然后起身跑了进去,呼吸急促。

“你愿意买我的头发吗?”,黛拉问。

“我买头发,”索芙罗尼回答,“脱下帽子,让我们瞧瞧你的头发。”

那帷漂亮的棕褐色头发像瀑布一样再一次飘落下来。

“20美元,”索芙罗尼非常老练地提起头发说。

“成交,”黛拉迫不及待地说。

接下来的两个小时过得飞快,黛拉跑遍所有商店为吉姆挑选礼物。

她终于找到了一件称心的礼物,它简直就是给吉姆定做的,再合适不过了——一只朴素雅致的银环链,非常与吉姆的金表相配。她第一眼看见它,她就看上了它,吉姆一定会喜欢它,虽然平淡了点,但它物有所值。她给了店主21美元后,急速回家,身上只剩下87美分。

一回到家,她马上开始修整剩下的头发。她长长的秀发因为爱被剪掉了,希望变成一件使吉姆喜欢的特殊礼物。修整剩下的被损害的头发却是一件不小的工作。

40分钟后,她的头被盖上了小小的圆形鬈发,使她看上去宛如一个小男生。她站在玻璃镜子前仔细端详了自己良久。

“吉姆一看到我这个样子,非杀了我不可,”她自言自语,“他一定会说我像一个歌女。但我该如何说呢?——奥,就反问:你说我能用一块八毛七买什么礼物呢?”

七点钟,她已煮好咖啡,炉子上的平底锅已加热,她准备开始烧肉。

吉姆下班后从来不晚回家。黛拉手里拿着银链,坐在门边。这时她听到了他的脚步声,但转眼间她脸色变得苍白。她习惯每天为最平常的事情祷告一会儿,但这时她却嘀咕着:“祈求上天,让吉姆认为我还像以前美丽。”

门开了,吉姆走了进来。他看上去清廋但却很严肃。可怜的人,他才21岁就要养活一个妻子。他需要一件新外套和一双手套来为那双冰凉的手保温。

吉姆进门后停了下来,像小狗嗅一只小鸟一样一动不动。他的眼光停留在黛拉的身上,这种眼光蕴含的感情她读不懂,但却使她害怕。它不是怒气,也不是惊讶,不是害怕,也不是其它任何感觉。这使得她无所适从。他只是用一种奇怪的表情看着她。黛拉走向他。

“ 吉姆,我亲爱的,”她哭着说,“别这样看着我。我剪掉了我头发并卖了它,因为我不能让你度过一个没有礼物的圣诞节。我的头发可以再生,而今天我不得不这样做。我的头发长得很快。请说‘圣诞快乐’,吉姆,让我们高兴起来吧。你一定不知道我给你准备了一件多么好、多么漂亮的礼物。”

“你剪掉了你的头发?”吉姆问,语速极慢,就像是他的头脑运作艰难,还没有听懂她的话。

“剪掉了,并且卖了,”黛拉说,“难道这样就不像我了吗?我没有了长发,但我还是我自己,对不对?”

吉姆环视整个房间,好像在找什么东西。

“你说你的头发没有了?”他问到。

“你不用找了,”黛拉说,“它被我卖了,我已说过——卖了,没有了。今天是平安夜,亲爱的,对我好点,因为它是为你剪掉的。我的头发也许是有数的,”她用一种突然而来的甜言蜜语继续说,“但任何人也数不清我对你的爱有多少。让我把肉放在锅里好吗,吉姆?”

“你难道没有给我做过一件错事吗,戴尔?”他说,“我认为,你把头发剪成什么样子,也不会丝毫减少我对你的爱的。但如果你打开这个礼物盒后,你就明白我刚才一看到你时所产生的震惊了。”

黛拉用嫩白的手指快速地撕开盒子上的系带和包装纸。她发出一声喜悦的叫声,但随后,天呀,化作泉涌的泪水和痛哭,家里的男人用尽浑身解数也不能安慰住他的妻子。

因为这是一枚梳子——一种能整理她的头发的特殊物件,黛拉一次隔着那家商店的玻璃柜看见它时就想买下的东西。这只漂亮的梳子是由贝壳做成的,嵌着宝石边—— 且颜色正配她那头刚被剪掉的秀发。她知道买它需要很多钱,她向往它,但从不奢望拥有它。但现在,这只漂亮的梳子真的是自己的了,但其秀发却不再是自己的了。

但收好了梳子后不久,她便显露出平静的微笑,并说道:“我头发长的很快,吉姆!”

然后黛拉就像一只着火了的小猫跳了起来,喊道,“奥,奥!”

吉姆还没有见到自己漂亮的礼物呢。她兴高采烈地拿出礼物戴到他手指上,银链看上去明亮无比。

“难道它不美吗,吉姆?我跑遍全城才找到它。从现在起你必须每天看它100遍,给我你的金表,我想看看它们是多么的相配。”

没有遵从黛拉的要求,吉姆从沙发上下来,用手抱住自己的后脑笑着。

“戴尔,”他说,“让我们把圣诞礼物放在一边,过一段时间再用。它们真是太好了,以致于我们不能立刻用它们。我卖掉我的金表以换钱去买了与你秀发相配的梳子。而现在,为什么不赶紧把肉放在锅里去呢?”

麦吉是三个非常聪明的人——极端聪明的人——他们给婴儿时期的耶稣买礼物。他们发明了赠送圣诞礼物的文明。聪明的人,将得到明智的礼物。但在这里,我给大家讲述了一对不太聪明的年轻夫妇互赠圣诞礼物的故事,他们互赠的是家里最贵重的财富。但最后我要奉劝当今聪明人一句话:在所有赠送礼物的人们中间,这对夫妻是最聪明的,在何时何地,他们都是最聪明的。。。

21 January 2009

没有常在心的日子第239天

Shared devotions today, for the first time without you next to me.. letting me have the chance to bother you with my practices, my "TH"s

Devotions 21st January Wednesday
Good Morning College! I’ll start today’s devotion by telling you a story. There was a man who was slowly losing his memory. After a lengthy examination, his doctor said that a risky operation on his brain might reverse his condition and restore his memory. However, the surgery would be so delicate that a nerve could be severed, causing total blindness.
The surgeon asked, “So, which would you rather have, your sight or your memory?” The man pondered for a while and replied, “My sight, because I would rather see where I am going than remember where I have been.”
In Philippians 3:13-14 (New International Version)
The apostle Paul said, “Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
Indeed, we are often caught in our past failures and fail to move forth. But if we choose to press forward and put aside our past, so much more can be done. We just ushered in 2009, and in a few days time, we will usher in the Lunar New Year. Every day is a new day and every year a new year and there’s always something to look forward to. This is the first time we have only the JC2s in school for the first three weeks. One group that I have seen very much in actions is the OGLs. They came in for 3 consecutive days for 12 hours each day before the term even started to get ready for Orientation and I know they have been back on other occasions. All of you have also gotten together to put up OPEN HOUSE for the second time on 13th January. The chapel speaker on Monday shared about mentoring and that is quite relevant for all of you JC2s because you will most likely play the role of the mentor to your juniors. Your first year in college has gone by quickly. My hope is that as seniors in this New Year, as the class of 2009, that every one of us will make the most of our time here, PRESSING forward, LEAVING A LEGACY! Let us pray…

Father we give thanks to you for this New Year and every new day. Father help us choose to press forward and be free from the shackles of the past. In this very exciting New Year, we pray that you will grant us the energy and the PASSION to live each day to the fullest. Help us keep our eyes on the prize and help us fix our eyes on you. All this we pray in your son’s most precious name.

15 January 2009

没有常在心的日子第233天

我还是回来了。。。

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙

在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响


如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差
人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙

在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响


如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差
人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎