没有常在心的日子第126天

周末过得格外精彩，我的心情也开始呈现色彩，可能我们都不应忽略时间的疗效，你应该更了解，毕竟你还多了其他的干扰。：）

庆幸现在拥有的，庆幸现在在身边的，也庆幸自己没有放弃自己

Sitting at the Boardwalk Club and watching the FIRST Formula 1 race in Singapore and the first night race EVER was exhilarating!!! I must really say I am so thankful for the friends around.. THANK YOU>> THANK YOU>>>THANK YOU... really can't thank you guys enough...

Didn't realsie the sound of the F1 cars flashing by would be so deafening, and as usual I don't beleive in getting ear plugs and stuff... WELL.. serve me right again, but luckily we had the aircon lounge to hide in.. and could have food and drinks at the same time..

Met Joanna's friedn Jason and his very pretty Lithuanian MODEL GF, WOW, I must say.. she is BEAUTIFUL... popped by Club 21 White Rabbit PArty at the OLD Supreme COurt..

It was a great night... without you..

F1 Excitement

The whole city seems buzzing with LIFE.. yeah I do mean buzzing with LIFE... We're actually coming to life as a city... and I am feeling more alive than ever!!!

没有常在心的日子第121天

K.

K.

K.

没有常在心的日子第120天

Work and Meeting are slightly overwhelming... and I am happy that I am balancing Play and Work well... I wonder where I get the energy... maybe from my rekindled passion for LIFE in general... YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!!!!! Freaking High on Life!!!

没有常在心的日子第119天

Letting Go...

Giving Control to God

Knowing HE is there

Not Judging

遗落在人间

没有常在心的日子第118天

失踪
林忆莲

她说她找不到能爱的人
所以宁愿居无定所的过一生
从这个安静的镇到下一个热闹的城
来去自由从来不等红绿灯
酒吧里头喧哗的音乐声
让她暂时忘了女人的身份
放肆摇动着灵魂贴着每个耳朵问
到底哪里才有够好的男人
没有爱情发生
她只好趁着酒意释放青春
刻意凝视每个眼神却只看见自己也不够诚恳
推开关了的门在风中晾干脸上的泪痕
然后在早春陌生的街头狂奔
直到这世界忘了她这个人

对不起谢谢你
林忆莲

从凝聚在眼角 到跌下来
今天该要对我那眼泪喝彩
能让我证实我 曾经这么深爱
得到的满足 大过悲哀
从明白没有你 也有未来
终于相信我也有气力放开
途上再偶遇你 仍舍不得感慨
漆黑的背影 也有光彩
从来未答谢你 让当天春光比盛夏明媚
没有终此生的运气 都不必再讲对不起
何年何月也谢你 明天的烟花将落在何地
亦学会怎么珍惜转眼运气 相处一秒钟一世纪 都很美
如从来未爱你 哪会别离 伤心高兴永远也会成正比
荣幸我会共你 曾经不舍不弃 多刻骨铭心 我记得起

SAME MELODY, DIFFERENT LYRICS AND TITLE

曾经这么深爱
得到的满足 大过悲哀
所以宁愿居无定所的过一生
终于相信我也有气力放开
从明白没有你 也有未来
从来未答谢你 让当天春光比盛夏明媚
没有终此生的运气 都不必再讲对不起
荣幸我会共你 曾经不舍不弃 多刻骨铭心 我记得起

没有常在心的日子第117天

Had to work early morning, finishing up BPA slides.. my plate is really quite exciting, not full yet.. but work is stretching me..challenging me...

You should know I enjoy the adrenaline pump when I am stretched, yet know that I will manage just fine... and now with the motivation back again... exciting possibilities abound...

Have kinda firm up the YE school trips arrangements...

18112008-28112008 Beijing
30112008-06122008 Florida, Jacksonville
06122008-12122008 New York, New York!!!
12122008-18122008 Tokyo!! (Surprised?)

Won't be ard for your B'day but guess you would have HIm to celebrate... am glad for you.. MUAKS

Life is getting exciting ..once again...

没有常在心的日子第116天

为失恋悲伤是正常的，但不能让对失恋的投入比恋爱多，离开也可能是一种幸福。

你离开我是你给我最后的忠诚，谢谢你。

祝福你。

没有常在心的日子第115天

Setting your mind at ease has liberated me as well.

Making you feel less guilty has made me feel more at ease.

Releasing you from the sense of letting me down has made me appreciate myself better.

I have truly become...

and truly set myself free...

I realise I cannot force myself and my ideas on you, and I do not even want to attempt no more... My love for you is overwhelming, but I think maybe the best way to love you now is to truly let go... It's not about us anymore... and I have not given up loving you.. I still Love you but have given up trying to make you see that..

:)

没有常在心的日子第114天

徘徊过多少橱窗，住过多少旅馆
才会觉得分离也并不冤枉
感情是用来浏览 还是用来珍藏
好让日子天天都过的难忘
熬过了多久患难，湿了多少眼眶
才能知道伤感是爱的遗产
流浪几张双人床 换过几次信仰
才让戒指义无返顾的交换
把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情代罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转，等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢
烛光照亮了晚餐，照不出个答案
恋爱不是温馨的请客吃饭
床单上铺满花瓣 拥抱让他成长
太拥挤就开到了别的土壤
感情需要人接班 接近换来期望
期望带来失望的恶性循环
短暂的总是浪漫 漫长总会不满
烧完美好青春换一个老伴
把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情代罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转，等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢
把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情代罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转，等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢
你不要失望 荡气回肠是为了
最美的平凡

我能吗？

没有常在心的日子第113天

工作带来的满足感原来可以是那么振奋人心的，我大概是吃定这行饭，要谢谢周围的同事，还有老板的照顾。

我原来对无聊、毫无意义的事情的包容，可以那么大，在一个机构里久了，大概也会学会接受一些不完美，甚至是缺陷，重要的是要肯定自己存在的意义，知道自己的方向，得失心不能太重，否则会失去自我。

没有常在心的日子第112天

尊严
破碎
让步
迟疑
投降
三震
决绝
石头
肉欲
向往
阳光
颤抖
长藤
路人

Day 111 我们的纪念日加上八月十五中秋节－－月圆人不圆

过去两天忍得好辛苦，不让自己打扰你，不让自己让你看到我的狼狈。。

但最终发觉在深爱的人面前是没有尊严可言的，所以还是。。。

我们分开后，的确都过得更好了，但我相信，不该把一切归咎于我们住在一起的事实上，两颗心全心全意的付出，没有什么好后悔的。

我的心忽然又活了
总在见到你的那一刻
原来我也有过这样的悸动
只是在习惯自我保护后
忘了...
想聊的故事太长了
反而就都沉默的笑着
金色阳光洒在你双手上头
看起来好暖让我想紧紧握着

我用寂寞来惩罚我
看着你走过
要什么当时不说
此刻能有你倾听我
轻轻的转着　
那是种甘甜以后
让人想哭的快乐
这是我们的纪念日
纪念我们开始对自己诚实
愿意为深爱的人
放弃骄傲　
说少了你生活淡的没有味道
这是美丽的纪念日
纪念我们能重新认识一次
有些事要流过泪才看的到
不求完美爱的更远
要过的更好

我很好，我知道你也很好，谢谢你宝贝，心中的位子永远留给你，

八月十五日中秋节，加上我们的纪念日，没有团圆，没有月圆，但我会等着十年、二十年后的一天，当我们的八月十五皱皱时，屁股“寥寥”时，可以再给你一点关怀。。。

Hello

Was glad to have seen you and know that you're Ok.. not great but Ok.. which is good.. You might never know how much it means to just be able to know that you're alright... and I dunno if you sense it, but it was not easy pretending not to be too interested, pretending that I am just alright.. especially nearing the day that meant the world to us...

I care for you.. and I think I will never stop caring for you... and maybe what keeps me going is the PI GU LIAO LIAO DAY..

33 0R 13

Attending this two day Benchmarking workshop by Geogre Wong and I managed to stay awake and alive after my very happening weekend and Monday... Haha.. i think I may be 33 but I have the energy level of a 13.. i am actually not tired.. and looking OK...

Felt that the workshop can be condensed into half a day and kinda regret signing up... Somemore tom hosting JC/CI sharing and I am the IC and MC... plus Prelim marking...ARggghhhhh.. Won't say so much today.. CIAO!!!

没有常在心的日子第105天

Saw some of your more recent photos, and though u were all dressed up.. I have never seen you in a worse state before, but I know if I were to comment or ask, you would think that I was trying to make you feel bad or whatever so I won't, you must take care and maybe eat more... I miss the glow in your eyes and on such a happy occassion, I would have expected you to be radiant!

Don't make me worry about you.. and the worse bit is I can't even show that I CARE!

KL Day 03

It has been a fun trip.. with great company and a little bonus...

Had Hai Wai Tian seafood, Mei Keng Huat seafood, Bak Kut Teh, Gou Rou Bee Hoon which I was craving for... and this restaurant called El Cerdo... that mainly sells pork.. suckling pig.. pork knuckles.. spanish restaurant...

Went clubbing and had pre dinner drinks the two nights.. the clubs were great.. like Bangkok.. somehow there seems to be something wrong with SGP clubs or bars...

Found time to use the apt's gym.. The Ascott gym was much better than the Bkk Fraser's one but the apt in Bkk was definitely nicer...

Made friends with some locals as well while clubbing... and I will miss them...

KL Day 02

On record, the Greatest day after our breakup. YAY!

KL Day 01

Going Away again... Bangkok trip got postponed to Oct 03-05... and we're popping by at KL instead... Going by coach and staying at Ascott....

Life after break up has been good... and made much easier by ppl like Eka and Kat and Pat.... Thank you my dears.. Thanks for being there when the one true love I thought I had had failed me... Thank you..

没有常在心的日子第101天

当她横刀夺爱的时候
你忘了所有的誓言
她扬起爱情胜利的旗帜
你要我选举继续爱你的方式
你曾经说要保护我
只给我温柔没挫折
可是现在你总是对我回避
不再为我有心事而著急
人说恋爱就像放风筝
如果太计较就有悔恨
只是你们都忘了告诉我
放纵的爱也会让天空划满伤痕
太委屈
连分手也是让我最后得到的消息
不哭泣
因为我对情对爱全都不曾亏欠你
太委屈
还爱著你你却把别人拥在怀里
不能再这样下去
穿过爱的暴风雨
宁愿清醒忍痛地放弃你
也不在爱的梦中委屈自己

百日之祭

死了一百天了，魂飞魄散了吗，烟硝云灭了吗，还是依然留恋，依然徘徊。。。挥不去、抹不掉

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雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱
我 一个人 欣赏 悲哀
爱 只剩下无奈 我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间 永远都夹著空白
缺了一块 就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人 疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的 溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡 今後都不管
只要你 能愉快
心 有一句感慨 我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前 替我再回头看看
那些片段 还在不在
紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人 疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的 溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快
紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人 疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快

Day 99

林语堂：基督的教導為靈魂充電，且美得無與倫比

Happy Teachers' Day

Happy Teachers' Day!

Spent the day at work... haha.. quite meaningful though... thought I collected all my gifts already but was pleasantly surprised when I saw this handmade gift from Warrick..

Chanced upon this song which:

多想要找到一丝挣扎在你脸上　
可是你美得冷得淡得像月亮
等著你的那辆车 灯闪一下　
像催你草草断了我们的过往
约好要每年回到初拥吻的地方　
划一个记号写下相恋的感想
等明年我剩一个人 坐在堤防　
该唱首什么歌来纪念爱的傻
让你逃亡 又让你回航　
让你依赖 我也让你倔强
只要你微笑
带一点感动的泪光　
我就得到可以再给的力量
我让你飞翔 又让你说谎　
我让你苛求 我也让你奢望
我还以為爱
就是要体贴的退让
我们一起盖的罗马　
你却跟他拆了城墙
踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂
太绝对的爱 变成了活该　
朋友要我责怪 我却只想重来
也许这就叫爱
我让你飞翔 又让你说谎　
我让你苛求 我也让你奢望
我还以為爱 就是要体贴的退让
我们一起盖的罗马　
你却跟他拆了城墙
踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂
多少日子盖的罗马　
你用一夜拆了城墙
踩碎我曾让你栖息的胸膛

It's your third month with him.. Happy Anniversary!